So its official I'm not going to graduation, I think I can work things out to get my BFA completed if I can get my "incomplete" classes taken care of. My mother and I have spent almost an hour on the phone yelling and crying at each other. More crying on my part really, I'm still trying to decide if I'm going to take an over night bag and go over to inuwashi's place for the night. I'll wait and see how bad it is when she gets back from work haha.

I'm kind of just relieved I don't have to hid it from her any more, that takes half the pressure off. I'm mad at my advisor for refusing to talk to me, I still need to get my BFA done even if I'm not walking in graduation. Its kind of fucked up she wont talk to me over the phone at least.

Thanks to everyone who has been overly sweet and supportive through this horrible school hell, and you know listening to all my wangsting and tears. I appreciate it.

On a lighter note, so what lovely lady wants to make an honest women out of me in CA. ;D

HOSHIT SO ME AND shiroro ARE GOING TO FANIME, AND NOT PAYING FOR ANY OF IT!
So this Japanese doujinshi company is paying for us to work a couple of 8 hour shifts over the weekend and will cover our flight for us!
SO WHO IS GOING TO TOTALLY HANG OUT WITH ME? COME ON GUYS! :D
We leave next thurs and fly back on Mon.

EDIT: I am also a dick because this means I cant go to my wife gwingangel's graduation party! D: D: D: I am terrible!

ALSO PIMPING



I'm so glad the deadline for the comic I'm doing for this isnt until the 31st! D:

God at this rate I'm going to explode into a pile of comics by the time Masters program starts.

We also have a million new Barista's now, and the morning shift now has two people per shift. This kinda sucks since that means my tips are going to be split. Suck. I'm also not going to be working a 3rd shift now, so my hours at work are going to be lower then planned. I might need to consider a second job?

School is still raping me though but what ever. I dont care right now.

Pages 67-69: Stephanie Wilson (Old Fashioned) Digital
Hoho well I managed to get the first 3 pages of OF into the senior cartooning book, I'm sure it will sky rocket my career! HARHAR.
I AM STILL CONFUSED WHY THEY FAILED TO TAKE MY TINTIN COMIC! Or any of my big men illustrations WHY WHY WOODRUFF? D:
Truly their loss!

In other news college continues to be my hell, I think I am still trapped in limbo. DAMN YOU SVA.

Essay status: Aka the fuckers standing between me and life: 2 and 2/3 complete out of 3

Status: Some where between dying and longing for death.
College is winning the battle, and by battle I mean helping me ruin my future.
Dosent look like I'm graduating guys!
outlook: depressed

In other news: New hair cut and threw out my back AGAIN.

Andy Robles you will be missed, here is to the passing away of a generous friend and an amazing artist. He may not have been a man of many words, but he was a man of gestures.
And a faster penciler will never be seen.

My father and I intended to take out one of his bikes yesterday but due to the size of the thing and the number of people walking around we were not successful, and the one open area we could have used had a guy teaching his kids to skate. Normally I would not be worried, but this is a long bike and the steering is a bit off. I.E. Slow and hard to turn, my arms were sore from battling the monster for even a short while.

Comiccon was uneventful for me, I got to see in person some much missed faces and then spent the rest mostly being annoyed. I am reminded how little I care for conventions I have no table to hide behind, the crush of humanity of is other wise to over bearing for me.

COMICS WHY?
the last of the Ikey hell pages, and OLD FASHIONED??? 2 pages you say?
( there they lie below this cut. )

I can see the light at the end of my BFA, if only the road wasn't so slick with tears and the bones of fallen comrades.

Also go help vote for GAM's anniversary cards! I understand there are prizes involved.

I really need to go write a paper.

I've been managing to get myself to work on comics just about everyday this week, my new rule being no matter what time I get home from school or work. I force myself to sit down and do pencil corrections, inking or digital editing. My next goal is to get up to at least a page or more a day. D:
We shall see how successful that turns out...

I'm up to page 6 of my Ikey comic, Old fashioned is up to like 20-21 pages? I was hoping to wrap up Black forest at the end of the month. But I have to sit down and like bang out a doujin for the big jump anthology.
Tues- 2 comic pages on subculture
Weds- all 8 pages of Ikey DONE and ready for printing...

May - doujin deadline
may-14th - editor portfolio reviews
may 16th- graduation

I paid for registration for AX and Otakon today, urgh like $100 there! D: I still have to reg for anime next but I'm holding off.
Oh yeah I am going to AX, yay flyer miles.

Every time I get a pay check I have to remind myself I'm not buying these. No matter HOW shiny and tall they'd make me. ;_; (Maybe if I get some extra graduation cash I shall get them)

I suspect the only thing that allows me to spend my weekends attacking my work pile is the fact I get to hang out after class and have big group dinners 3 times a week. Otherwise I'd probably have snapped at this point.
Also FUCK YOU TAXES.

ART DUMP Take two!
I'm so so tired right now.
( More of the Ikey comic )

( Stevie ruins Tintin )

( What if catwoman was a terrible shoujo manga )

All smart thoughts have been like destroyed by sleep deprivation at this point. cheers

urgha I might have to fill in for one or two saturday morning shifts, it will be based mostly on GUILT and if no one else will step up. Extra cash is good, but AT WHAT COST? Working the Friday night shift and then getting home and to bed only to have to wake up 6 hours later is kind of full of suck from what I hear tell. I'd get to work with a barista I like working with... SO WE SHALL SEE.

I feel like I am full of fail this term, I hate that feeling. I got and extra 2 sets of ear holes though and redyed my hair, ooooo! Its making sleeping uncomfortable though, I also learned I am a BLEEDER. Possibly due to the large amounts of caffeine I drink.

In this art post
2 Pages of O.Henry date rape, 1 page of old fashioned, TORCHWOOD
( ART )
Later I will subject you all to my TinTin fancomic, and my shoujo catwoman attempt.

I - I need sleep so bad right now. WORK in like 4 hours.

So today at work I totally earned an extra $31 in tips with in 7 hours. HAHA YES.
I'm also no longer working on Mondays, which kinda sucks cus that hurts my paycheck but is also great since it means I get a 3 day weekend to try to catch up with comics and school every week.
I AM how ever filling in this Saturday night, so people can also visit me then if your around. I understand its busy as hell, I dont know who my shift partner is that night yet. I worked this past Sunday to cover someone, it was a very long 9 hours.

( TORCHWOOD )

ALSO in case anyone else has not run into this.
I totally managed to find an ENGLISH version of SAI, its full you can save files all proper like. VERY SEXY! Its a bit like a more basic copy of painter. You can EASILY flip and rotate your canvas and layers for easy correction when drawing. The inking tool is super nice too, its water and color tools are a lot like Opencanvas. You can also export as PSD files. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
I am excited, I cant wait to use this.
DOWNLOAD!!!

Have you ever gone and looked at your journal tag list? Its kind of amazing out of context. :D

So its GirlaMatics 5th birthday and I 100% busted my ass for like 7 straight hours of penciling>inking> and digital painting. Only to realize my timing was off and I didn't have to post till friday! I had assume I was behind for the festivities. Apparently I got it done EARLY by accident! I AM SPECIAL! Oh well at least it got done right?
Even if many a thing is terribly wrong. Why do I even bother with perspective? sigh.

Urgh art post later tonight! Must work! D:

Sleep and I have always been on somewhat uncomfortable terms. All those all nighters and what not, we have a history of discontent. As of late we had reached something of an understanding, and truce was formed. But sleep broke that truce by ABANDONING ME. For days now, where I lay awake rolling in bed WAITING for a meeting that never occurs but for a few fleeting moments when I am all but resigned to suffering all day on none at all.
I dare not venture guess how many hours I have gotten this week, but I am certain the number is painfully low. As I have continued to suffer in exhaustion through work and classes, caffeine replacing my alliance with sleep in order to keep me from collapsing into a sad broken mound of humanity.

So I decided tonight since I was pretty sure sleep would not find me till dawn YET AGAIN, I went ahead and decided to buy some hair dye and well. EXPERIMENT.
The results?
I am still not fully certain, I need to have my handy work inspected by someone who can properly look at the back of my head.
I wonder now if perhaps highlighting is a bad judgment call when coupled with massive sleep deprivation.

On a shallow materialistic note I am totally digging the rockabilly style line from Lip-service. I should ask the trash and vaudeville manager when next he visits the store to give me a heads up if they get them in his shop. D: <3 <3
It makes me actually wish for once I cared enough to work out my stomach muscles, I totally dig that bikini! ALAS.
I'm probably going to end up with a pair of those capri pants though so CUTE.

Also for the sake of oppurtunity I posted a bunch of journal comics recently. Some of you have already seen.

- The shopping adventure of robo_kai, gwingangel and I. And the quest to make her a GIRL.

-kite221 tells me of the urban legend of the man code, and other fine quotes.

- In which I relate how comics are killing me and reflect on how close I am to an elvegren pinup while doing dishes.

Truly exciting and selfabsorbed yes? HAR.

PS I shouldnt do journal posts when I am this EXHAUSTED CLEARLY. In general people should avoid all talking to me in such a state, as I ramble and am "off" so to speak. And say many a regrettable thing.

Except what I told robo_kai and how sugar tits would be a TOTALLY normal and affectionate nick name for her boyfriend. I will never regret THAT.

( So I totally got accepted into MASTERS )
That said I am going to pass out, so I can try really really hard to pencil AT LEAST 3 comic pages tomorrow. And THEN go get trained for better coffee serving.

Dear croaky and halcyonjazz,
I HATE YOU BOTH.
I SPENT ALL NIGHT READING VINLAND SAGA.

I have to be up in 4 hours. And I was at work till 11.
GOD WHY?
DAMN YOU VIKINGS!

-SW

You know what my entries have been lacking? OH YES ELFWOOD COMMENTARY!

"Aww I don't aprove of the whole SasukexSakura thing at all, it ticks me off, nooffence to people who do like it (im free to express myself on here!) also pleasedont draw them no more cuz they are way to fat and WHAT THE HELL IS SAKURA HOLDING!i mean come on! I've seen your art, you could have done better! P.S Can everyoneSTOP bagging out on Sasukes leg about how its so fat, it was apologised for alreadyso give it a rest aiight, seriously. xox"

This comment is confusing because they SEEM to be contradicting them selves! A LOT! :D

"Aww poor little Gaara, hes always getting rejectionated. Poor Luv. =( anyways itsa good pic, very cute. but i dont get it, is Gaara mad at Naruto for liking Sasuke,or at Sasuke for liking Naruto? anyways keep it up,ive been looking at all yourpics and they are quite alright! =) xox"


SWEET, my pics are ALRIGHT!

"THIS IS A SHET MI BROTHER NO IS ONE EMO STUPID ARTIST YOU ARE EMO BITCH "

whut.....?

ALSO LOL on this one site Lexicon Punks is listed as SHOUJO AI! HAHAHAA. Oh what a horrible LIE.
( LIFE )

( I leave you with faggy art AKA Old fashioned )

So my friends like to occasionally remind me that I should update my journal and prove to the outside world I am in fact not dead or in a nut house.

WOOPS?

I just got off work like 30 minutes ago, I smell like coffee, I also have a new Monday shift partner. She is more Gothic/punk then I, its amazing. We make a kind of dark pair as we both seem to dress almost entirely in black and both with very pale skin. Haha.

In other news I have been turning out some fairly nice comic pages, but I am frustrated that I'm not getting more done faster. I NEED to get up to like 7 pages a week, but I am falling short of that thanks to horrible time limits and lack of energy. I also have a lovely eye twitch that has been assaulting me for like 4 damn days. Awesome.

Um I have like a 13-14 hour day tomorrow, so I might be dead by Thursday. I am only marginally optimistic on my survival chances, remember me for all the hairy men I drew. DAMN YOU MIDTERMS!

That said I must go study so I can be in bed in 2 hours. So I can wake up 5 hours after that. SWEET.

EDIT:~!
Page 14 of old fashioned which I did ages ago... And uh never really posted or uploaded apparently?
Oops. also random sketches and class illustrations hurhur.

So I uploaded some MUSIC! I guess thats my early valentines for you all. ENJOY

yael naim - new soul (Its the song from the "AIR" MAC commercial)
yael naim - Toxic (YES it IS a cover for Brittany spears its AWESOME.)
yael naim - Too long
Sia - Electric bird
Sia - Buttons
Sia - The Girl You Lost To Cocaine
Sia - Little Black Sandals
Sia - cares at the door

Download HERE (right click save as.)

I am JACKED on spray can fumes.
Man I cant believe I have to go to bed at 11pm. DAMN YOU OPENING SHIFT! Urgha.

( My weekend hahaha  )

shiroro and z_officinale visited me today! <3 It was nice, I got to chat with them and laugh at shiro by joining z_officinale in saying horrible dirty things. I think shiro is full of regret tonight. <3 KEKEKEKEKEKEKEKE

I get to open up ALONE on Wednesday, y-yay? Also starting next week I close on Fridays. Graaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. So yeah... Visit me Mondays and Fridays. PLEASE? It gets boring! D:

( DAMN YOU HITSUGAYA! - ART. )

HEY shiroro I way playing around with the tones for the 2nd page of our comic. What do you think?
LOL I dont know why I'm posting this now, I'll probably see you tonight before you see this. XD;

( cut for comic! D: )

OK TEGAKI FOLK!

I have laid down the gauntlet you people better draw some fucked up shit, none of this pretty crap! D:
Drawing boards are for scarring people! Publicly!

LOVE SW