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11 January 2011 @ 09:33 pm

Thanks to everyone who left me condolence notes! It was really sweet and touching. I am doing ok as ok is? Which is sad and angry, and other wise being my normal self.  Yesterday was my first day back at work; it feels really odd and not quite real that it’s been exactly a week since my father passed away. I have pretty much had visits from my friends just about every day; my mom has been really touched by how they have all kind of collected around us so aggressively. Every one has been very ardent in wanting us to know how loved and cared for we are and wont take no for answer.

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I am going to be ok, slowly but surely. My family was always really fucked up so honestly, we were prepared for this I guess. Just didnt think it would be so fast or so soon.

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04 January 2011 @ 10:57 pm
So here marks the final post of my fathers health.

My father was a complicated man, a creative man, a good father, a bad father and a good man with many weaknesses.
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04 January 2011 @ 03:32 am

How was your day world? My day sucked.
Which is actually perhaps not the best description of the stress and emotional drain it actually was, but hey! Sucked is so direct and to the point.

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collapse his lung YEAH. I have no idea how long he is going to be there.



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30 December 2010 @ 01:27 am

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The family is currently dealing with it like how we deal with all problems, pretending they dont exist and that we dont have feelings. We will manage.

Current Mood: melancholymelancholy
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04 October 2010 @ 11:40 pm
Gave my 2 weeks notice at the dog day care job, when I had mentioned it to my manager at the place I have been Baristaing at she instantly and excitedly offered me MORE shifts there.

In theory I could have about 40 hrs per week, slightly flexible schedule if I can get people to cover me when I need it. Some tip cash per shift, although tips aren't that great. I make maybe $10 on Saturday shifts there. Also pretty much complete freedom for clothes, most of the customers are laid back and mostly not dicks. Its not 100% my dream shop job, but its pretty nice. The manager sent me an email thanking me for all my extra efforts and for helping to teach one of the girls about making espresso drinks. Which suggests I am appreaciated and all that stuff.

Today I interviewed at shiroro 's company, and after 2 quick interviews they offered me a job. Just like that. I would work with fancy chocolate on wall street. A block away from Adams apartment, an extra doller an hour, benifts kick in after 3 months. Over time and I assume raises and all of that stuff. But I wear a uniform, have to keep my hair the way its dyed now so no big chunks of red in the front. The manager there is nice, its supposed to be a more calm store. But the clientale can be well, rich assholes for the most part. Argueably the smarter more secure job choice. GFchan did not approve of the idea of me wearing a uniform that involves a orange turtle neck

SO hard to chose, I have to decide tomorrow so I can either give 2 weeks notice or turn down the job so I am not a huge jerk either way.
Really I am just so tired and burt out from all the over stressed over worked stuff its making it harder to chose at this point.

I got 1 of my shifts covered this week, and possibly part of one covered this friday eve offered to close if I could cover part of the shift since she has class.

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20 July 2010 @ 02:51 am
Coming soon to an internet near you! Unless I get sick of this before I even get to Otakon

I've been busting my ass getting ready for Otakon to make up for my lack of productivity before AX. Also since I am still jobless sinking my energy into art has help fight off the woe is me jobless depression that keeps threatening to turn me into a useless husk.
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